The Day I Noticed The Signs

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and a Happy New Year! I have enjoyed my 2 week vacation. However, it comes to an end on Jan 3rd and I am back to work until Spring Break and then summer break! We celebrated Christmas Eve with family and had a great time eating, playing games, and opening gifts. Zion got some pretty awesome things! Christmas Day was ok, and I say ok because I think after a while Zion just got really overwhelmed and over stimulated with everything. All the new gifts/toys, people, and just the day in general, I believe it really over stimulated him to the point of melt down after melt down. It can be frustrating, but I just always have to remind myself that Zion’s brain is wired a little different and he gets overwhelmed much easier then other people.

 

So these melt downs combined with other melt downs Zion has had lately has triggered something in my head. I often see videos/memes about people that have spoiled children and how they throw these tantrums in stores and out in public. This made me think about how people may portray me and Zion when he has a melt down. Very rarely has this happened in public, and it has never been because he didn’t “get something or his way”. However, it has happened and I know eventually it will happen again. What if someone videoed my son’s melt down and placed it somewhere to show how much of a horrible parent I am (or they think I am)? I mean, I get it, there are children out there that have tantrums because they are spoiled and flip out when they don’t get their way, however my son isn’t one of those children. Does anyone else with an AU child (or any disability for that matter) ever have this fear? That people are judging you and your child? I will be honest, I am one of those people that is very quick to tell someone something, especially when it comes to my child, but at the same time I just hate for somebody to look at my child like this. Am I crazy for thinking this? Is it all in my head?

 

Lastly, a little house update! Our house has a frame and walls on the outside! This happened very quickly. We did a little walk-through and Zion was very excited. We showed where his room is going to be and he informed us that he would like for it to be painted blue. They said it should be ready in March, and I am thinking early March. Hopefully we will have an estimated closing date soon! I am so happy that Zion has been a part of this process and that he is starting to understand that that is going to be our new home.

As always, thank you so much for reading and watching! Have a Happy New Year and we will see you in 2 weeks!

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